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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MINHO&ONEW~
but I wish the two of them a very, very, VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! =)
No picspam because I'm busy with about seven review requests and two graphics, but I promise to make it up somehow...
Sooo.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINHO&ONEW OPPAS! ^^
...haha. English rule for plural nouns with a Korean word. Haha. xD
Awakening
I think it's the highlight of like...being 15. Sort of. I mean...it was great. I went with my crush (Peter), and it was...great. And no, Soomi, I don't have a boyfriend. =p meow.
It was sort of like...a dream come true.
And like all dreams, this one has an end.
Sunday was still okay. I mean, he goes to my church, so...yeah...he gave me a ferrero rocher. ^^ But we couldn't talk for too long.
Monday...what's there to say...I hate Mondays...
Tuesday was the...crappiest day...ever. It started out fine, ended fine, up until church basketball...Peter, Jacob, Mendel, and Michael were there from YG, and we all had fun playing against the adults...and stuff...
Abby was there with Jared, and she asked me if Peter and I "were an item" yet. = =" I told her no...
I didn't even have time to talk to him. =( Made me so sad.
Then, I got home and showered...and I talked to Jacob on facebook about that night's bball, when another girl commented on one of my posts when I was talking about ball, being all perverted and saying how Peter was a player and I was getting influenced.
THEN. THEN. THEN.
Then she copied and pasted the link of Jacob and my wall-to-wall and sent it to a FRIEND AT SCHOOL who had NOTHING to do with this to see, tagging me in the post and SCREAMED out at the entire world that I was a player.
What. The. Heck.
What did I ever do to her? NOTHING. I got pretty upset about it, especially since she was my friend and all. I don't mind her teasing, but this just stepped over the line.
Kyo talked to her today at school, and she told her that I was pretty upset. The girl laughed. Then Kyo was like, "It's not funny, she is very unhappy about it,"but you know what she said?
She said, "Oh well, who likes her anyway?"
And her friend, another one of my "friends"...apparently, she doesn't like me either because she thinks I'm weird. = =" OH, WOW, GREAT REASON.
They both go to my church, too. > < I don't know how I'm going to put up with this. First Peter, then Eunice and Vivian...
The dream has shattered into Alice in Wonderland. I want to find my way home.
Except...which way is it?
OVER. FINALLY.
SATS ARE OVER.
I think I did really bad on it...I'd be surprised if I got anything over 600 - -' meowww. AeRi unnie, remember when I said I was going to cry? Well, I actually did. I started bawling - -' and I HATE crying, but hey...meow. = =" I'd like to say thanks to...IAN FONG, my freaking best friend...I'd don't know what I'd do without him...I thank God that every time I cry, I can always go to him, whether I'm crying in some bathroom in HK or at home before exams or when I'm scared...=) it's great to know that someone's there for you like that. And I don't know if she'll read this, but DAWN CHOW, thank you for being cool and praying for me...I'll go comment on your live after I settle everything - -' Thank you also to (again) AERI UNNIE for knocking some sense into my airhead brain...and to FAITHY TWINNIE for making me happy =) Also...to SAM LEE even though he'll never see this...he made my day by making me laugh. And last but definitely not least, to HEO TEMPURA for wishing me good luck and talking to me ^^
Thank you guys for your support..-bows- KAMSAHIMNIDA! LOVE YOU GUYS!
Shout-outs
I am thankful to God for each and everyone one of you because you guys have made my life so much easier and happier in each of your own ways...
AeRi unnie - Unnie, thank you for always being there for me. =D I know that I can be the most annoying dongsaeng on the planet, but thanks for putting up with that and all my spazzing to listen to me whenever I needed someone. You're the best unnie in the world, and I thank God you're always there at the right time, whether it was to SHINee/hubby spazz with me or listen to my problems. Thank you for caring so much about me ^^ I lobs youu!
PS- THANK YOU FOR THE BDAY VIDEO<333> < Sorry I couldn't make you one for your birthday...not that talented...
Faithy - My one and only TWINNIE, I thank God that you're living in the States and that you have texting. ...xD Yes, I thank God for that, but I also thank Him because He's given me a friend I could talk to about anything, ANYTHING at all, even if we're being crazy spastics or weird angsty people (like we always are. And that run-on sentence should SO not be there). Thank you for always lifting me up when I feel down and being there for me, whether it's texting on your phone or iPod or on YM or blog. Love you, twinnie~
PS- THANK YOU FOR THE MOST MEMORABLE BIRTHDAY EVER<3 =)
Jaemin jie jie - JIE JIE, you're goneeeee, for likeeeee, so longggg. ...xD Slant rhyme is awesome. Jie jie, thank you for the letters =) For constantly making me happy and constantly giving TaeMin wifey to me. - -' meow. Thank you for listening to me, and...> < I'm sorry I couldn't always be there when you didn't feel your best...but all in all...thank you for being such an encouragement to me and making me smile with your insane hyperness (like mine!) =D Come back soon~~ 妹妹很想你!
日本料理 (SOOMI! ^^) - 天賦儸~ did I even type that right? o.o xD anywayyy. You crazy spastic<3 I HART YOU!! My mandarin buddy~ thank you for sending me stuff from Singapore...o.o and for your letters...you have no idea how happy you made me the day I got them...
Soomi~ I'm so proud of you =) I have said this time and again, especially in Stavolta, but I really am proud of you for realizing the facts behind the hurt and going for your own goal and future. You can do it, 'Mi. I believe that you can. Praying for you~ STUDY HARD =) hart you~
Ana dongsaeng - ANA. Despite you trying to be pessimistic all the time, I think it's pretty funny. xD but yeah, anyway...thank you for being there and listening to me rant every day...and for talking to me, telling me things to keep me sane. Thanks for putting up with your annoying unnie all the time and for making me smile =) love yooh.
Yuuri unnie - Unnie, although we don't always talk, thank you for paying attention to me and always leaving encouraging messages on my cbox. =) Thank you for listening to me rant on YM and being there for me...and encouraging me even then. It sucks that we can't always talk to each other, but yay for blogspot. xD lol. Anywayyy...yes, thank you for your encouragement. Lobs yooh~
Naomi unnie - NAOZ UNNIE!!!! I MISS YOUUUUU T^T WHEREEEEE HAVE YOU BEEEENNNNNNNNNN T^T Butttttt...this past year, thank you for being there for me to spazz to...and unnie, I think your creative brain is amazing =) Not just that, but you've also inspired me to work on my vocals because you sing so well. =p Thank you for listening<3 =) hart youuu~ TALK MOREEEE, WOMAN =)
Amber - SHREDDED MISSY =) you're a great webmissie, you know? And IT SUCKS BECAUSE I DON'T GO ON AIM ENOUGH TO TALK TO YOUUU. But then againnnnn...I say something and you never answerrrr T^T why why whyyy. xD this yearrrr, I aim to get on AIM more (haha, aim, AIM) so I don't miss out on big stuff like HOW YOU GOT SWINE and NOBODY TOLD ME -glares at Ana-
But thank God all's good now. =) Soo yesh...thank you for...putting up with my email rants lately...xD =)
...short shout outs this year...-shrugs- =) Anywayyy. Just wanted to get this in. LOVE YOU GUYS. =)
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Discouragement.
I was dancing just now...and suddenly, I thought about a friend's friend who was going to audition in the NY SM auditions. I think she auditioned today.
But...just suddenly...this wave of...something hit me.
Disappointment.
Jealousy.
Anger.
Discouragement.
And suddenly, I looked at myself in the mirror and noticed all the bad things about me. About my appearance and dance skills (which I have none). About my personality and characteristics.
I started comparing myself to her.
Why does she get to try out for SM, even though it's all fun to her?
Why does she get to have fun while others take it as a lifelong dream- and they're not even given the chance to audition?
I'm disappointed in a lot of things.
I'm jealous because she gets a chance and I don't.
I'm angry at myself because I'm letting so many things break me down.
I'm discouraged because I'm just not good enough.
I thought I had put the dream behind me somewhere so that it wasn't my first priority anymore. I thought I reminded myself time and again that I was going to let God open the doors.
But...it still doesn't stop the sadness from coming. What if she made it into SM?
She gets to be a celebrity. She gets what I've wanted my entire life.
Did I mention that her favorite SHINee member was TaeMin?
Gawd...> < Why is this so hard?
I was in the middle of Into the New World when I suddenly just wanted to stop dancing. My voice cracked while I sang, and I kept going off key. My limbs were stiff when I tried to dance to the music.
By the time I finished and was moving onto Amigo, I just wanted to stop. And I did- but right in the middle of the song. I didn't even want to finish it.
And suddenly, I wanted to cry.
I've been so tired lately. Everything's happening- my SAT subject test scores just came out (highest 790, lowest 430), my school grades aren't helping me, my best friend had something bad happen to him and I wasn't there in time, my cousin and her friends are different, my friend's changed so much, and I've been getting pissed off at every little thing.
I am so, so tired. I want to hijack a plane and go somewhere to get rid of it all.
SATs are coming up next Saturday, and I don't know how I'm going to handle it, with all the school projects and assignments...all the review requests and all the friend problems...
I don't know what to do...
Meow. = ="
wtllll. > < This is all SM/f(x)'s fault. SM for overworking him. f(x) because their members were sick too.
And Jonghyun and Onew.
They're lucky TaeMin's case isn't serious. THANK GOD. > < I practically had a heart attack when I found out.
So depressing =( HUBBY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -sniff- -heart breaks- -sniff-
Hwaiting~ get well soon, baby<3
Meow. So, last night, I watched New Moon. After the movie was finished, my friends and I hopped and went in another one to watch it again. xD We watched the last 30 minutes =p
IT WAS HECKA AWESOME =)
I liked Twilight enough, so New Moon was great. I feel so bad for Jacob now. I want to like...get a Team Jacob t-shirt and a Twilight/EdwardxBella hoodie.
xD
meow. How contradictory.
Today, I went walking with Kyo. It was great; we spent a load of time with a cat...so lonely...it followed us around =p it just wanted to be petted! Heart broke every time we walked away = =" meow.
Then, we saw friends. Er...saw KYO'S friends. So we ended up staying in the cold for about an hour, talking about BOYS and SHOPPING. I HATE shopping.
And I swear, Kyo is getting on my last nerves. I am SO TIRED of all her crap saying she knows ALL ABOUT KPOP when it was ME who got her into it in the first place and how she's tired of hearing me rant about how much I hate shopping when I MENTION it.
I'm REALLY pissed off right now. WTL. AND we said we were going to pick out dresses for the Charity Ball together. Guess not; she's going with her friends tomorrow.
Sure, ditch me. I am seriously tired of her crap.
And wow. My mom just yelled at me. Whatthefrack.
Screw this. My hands are cold and I'm hungry.
I Want You Back by Secret is loveee. I love the dance =)
Miserable.
Not that that could stop her from going to school. Psh, I mean, her mom would never let her.
I am feeling utterly horrible at the moment. I slept at 12:30 last night, then woke up at 4, went back to bed, and I had an English test today. I fell asleep in the middle of it (I hate American Romanticism. = ="), and my eyes have been stinging the whole day. Then, I went on my computer...did stuff...and made brownies while reading "Beloved" for school. My eyes suffered. Oh, my eyes suffered.
Right after the brownies were done, I laid down on the couch to take a much-needed nap. Who knew; the nap lasted two hours. Filled with really. REALLY. Bad dreams of random stuff- I mean, Twilight, Disney, Horror...
And I can't stand horror. AT ALL. = ="
I mean, I dreamed that there were two pianos in the house, and "Faithy" (It WAS Faithy, but it didn't look like Faithy) was over. One of the pianos started playing River Flows In You by itself O.O
Then other scary stuff happened. - -'
I just woke up, and my eyes are really really tired > <
Last night bball, I was already feeling really bad because of my stomach and lack of rest. Peter told me to rest more<3 when he was the one that was obviously tired. = ="
Meow.
I think I'm going to get my mom to let me take the Spanish test tomorrow and then pick me up from school.
...What am I talking about. My mom has a job now; she can't just pick me up.
Gawd. I am going to suffer tomorrow. Halp. I'll faint in the middle of class or something.