Why does it hurt so much?
If it wasn't for school, I could sit on my bed all night, crying.

1. Jacob's leaving
2. Horrible fight with Fondue
3. I yelled at him without meaning to
4. I ruined his appetite
5. I basically just ruined everyone's night out
6. I suck at time management
7. I deserve whatever Fondue yelled at me about (which was about a billion times tonight)
8. I deserved pretty much everything mean/harsh he said to me (which he almost never did until tonight)
9. I am a failure
10. I am a waste of time
11. I am unloved
12. I am alone
13. I need to crawl into a hole and die.

I wonder if anyone would care when they read this.